Maelstrom of emotions
I don't exactly know where I went wrong. Perhaps it was going to Bali knowing that I didn't have enough funds. Perhaps it was messing up and buying the wrong flight ticket which made it impossible for me to pay Lawrences monthly due. Or it was just saying fuck it and not paying him at all. Mounting debt. It was easier to just give up on trying to pay that back. It was a loan shark deal to be fair though. I've done a lot of people wrong with money. Lawrence, Karolina, my parents, and my sister. I overpromise and underdeliver. I did go to a great extent with Sean though. For months I've paid half of what I was profiting. Yeah, I don't feel too bad about that one. I know that I am making more money than ever. But it is challenging for me to save up. I do feel decent about paying people and giving them jobs. Also, it provides value for travelers coming to Korea and Bali. It is not all for nothing after all. But I think what pushed me over the line was having no social i...