Writing practice

      About 5 days ago, I called Sean Lawrence without much thought, and 2 days later I was chatting up with him at the airport. He convinced me that life quality would be much higher in Chiang Mai than if I moved to Hongdae. And what really sold me was the $60 plane ticket and the $6/night hostel price. It felt as though the universe aligned to send me here, and here I was. It's only been like 4 days here, yet my whatsapp contact has grown 10x, and people seem to genuinely take care and care for me. It was a stark contrast to the vibe in Seoul. I started reading the book the Alchemist. It felt right. I'm kind of looking for my meaning here. Find my purpose. Right now I have about a month of runway. I need to be smart with my budgeting. But it feels amazing that I can take care of myself, and be independent. I feel free. If I grow my app just a tiny bit more, than I could easily sustain myself here. It almost feels like a bird trying to fly for the first time. Either way,...

     It's been maybe 15 months since I started MBTI Oracle website. Then I made MBTI Oracle app, about 9 months ago, then Simple Rizz app 4 months ago. Finally, I launched SnapRizz app about 4 days ago. Something I should have done approximately 4 months ago. I thought it was noble thing to do, to be original and come up with my own original thing, but why re-invent the wheel? Maybe it was a good thing I don't know, but damn did I almost burn out. I moved mountains trying to make simple rizz work, but ultimately realized that I was trying to force the tiktok algorithm, when it would have been magnitudes of orders more powerful to ride the tiktok algorithm like surfing a tsunami. At least, in the process I discovered I could be an influencer too if I wanted to, so hey there's that. The realization hit me when I was going home feeling defeated on a cab, when I was trying to dm the founder of plug ai, the one I am copying now, but with my own twist. Then I sensed the subtles...

     So yesterday, 2 and a half months since I started my tiktok channel about picking up girls, I got recognized for the first time in real life, at the bar. It was kind of surreal, I couldn't help smiling. He said he really liked what I did and to keep up my work. I felt amazing in the moment. I think being genuine about my message, and helping the younger generation really did help them feel the message. He also echoed the sentiment, "fuck looksmaxxing". But I can't lie, when other friends I made at the bar saw him recognizing me as the "pickup guru", there was pressure put on me. I think other people, or girls noticed him noticing me too. And I felt performance anxiety. But I actually did quite well flirting with girls after that. Altho none of them really went anywhere, I felt I was more smooth with it. In a way I feel like starting all over. I feel like I'm putting my apprentice hat back on, but the teacher this time is old self, my memories of wha...

Today I saw a video about speaking with more certainty, and it's something I used to be really good at. Kind of a lost art to me. I still got it but  (and) I'm sure I can polish it up to be much better at it. But the main thing that the video brought to my attention was hedging words. It's something I discussed with chat gpt previously as well. To sound more confident. The other points were ending with period, using down talk, and slowing down. I suppose slowing down is something I can practice as well. But the main thing is getting rid of hedging words. I am writing this blog to highlight the hedging words I use, and I already notice some I have used. I need (will) to practice getting rid of filler words too. It is remarkable how the way you do one thing is connected to how you do everything. The way you speak is connected to the way you write, and the way you write is connected to the way you think. So when you fix one thing, you fix other things by the way of connectio...

Prompt: Write a blog post for me considering my life these days. Imagine you were me and wrote it. It's like a diary, journal. I don't expect anyone to read it, it's more of a self reflection time for me. But I want to try something new. so you write it imagining you are me. Chat GPT: I don’t really know who this is for. Probably no one. Which makes it easier to be honest. Lately my life feels quieter on the inside, even though on the outside it probably looks louder than ever. I’m posting more, building more, shipping things into the world at a pace that would’ve scared an older version of me. But internally, something has settled. Not peace exactly—more like gravity. I wake up, I work, I push. I don’t ask my mood for permission anymore. That alone feels like a small revolution. There was a time when everything hinged on how I felt : inspired or empty, confident or washed, chosen or forgotten. These days, I move first. Feelings catch up later, jogging behind me, slig...

     I have a redemption arc. It is perhaps my greatest fuel. I was destined for greatness, but my environment prevented me from reaching my full growth and potential. Now I must break the cage around me, pull myself up, and unapologetically reach my true form. I have failed my honor once, by signing into a contract I could not fulfill. I was taken advantage by close people around me. But I have recognized the pattern, and refuse to shackle myself again. I'd rather die standing than live on my knees again. The old me must go and give space to the true me. It is a rebirth, perhaps returning to my old self before I was contaminated by the world and those around me. And I will reclaim the boundless confidence I had once. Trust in me again. I have started taking actions to be honorable, respectable, and keeping true to my words. It maybe small but honest work. I know I was born for greatness. It is the soul I was born with, and the day I realized that not everyone had this in...