Writing practice

     It's been awhile since I did the flow of consciousness writing, where I just write whatever that pops into my mind. Again, I seem to have underestimated my expenses for the month, and however this time it's more disappointing because this was the peak month of the year, and what I will have left at the end is much more underwhelming than what I had originally planned. I had this idea in my mind about how I would target the luxury high end apartments, and price accordingly. However in reality, I had to adjust my prices significantly, and the ADR turned out to be much lower than I originally thought. Or at least I think so... Whenever I plan something out and the reality turns out to be different, I kind of start doubting reality, and that's not good. It's almost like I can't trust myself, and even more, what is real and what isn't. So that can be quite horrible. But then I think to myself, no this is just numbers, simple math, and this is how reality is. It...

 Kelly Choi, probably the most successful person to give out youtube advices, constantly talks about the power of the subconscious. And it's so true. Thoughts that are combined with emotions are felt strongly to the bone, and they repeat subconsciously even when the mind is not focused on something. And combine that with the power of the compound effect, you have an extremely powerful recipe. If I can hack into feel great and obsess over wealth and abundance, I will see the word everywhere and make the connections in everything that I see. Focus on the node of concept, word, and feeling. I would draw wealth to me like a magnet. I see now what Kelly has been talking about. What the book the secret was talking about. At first it sounded like a bunch of mumbo jumbo but now all the dots are connecting more and more, and things start to make sense. You start repelling things that are not on your frequency, and start attracting what IS on your frequency. So I think the trick is to focus ...

     I finally signed up for the gym, which I have been telling myself I would do for weeks. I signed up around April, but it kind of fell apart after getting caught up setting up 7-1 apartment. After that, I was struggling to make the business float, but finally I have found some peace and stability. Now is a great time to invest some points into my personal life. It's kind of like putting upgrade points into my basic stats. I can work longer, focus better, and think better. So I am glad I finally came around to do that. I think it will be great for my self confidence as well. I will also for the first time try a personal trainer. I think that it will be a good experience. I would be outsourcing, and improving lot faster than if I were to do it on my own. Looking forward to my growth!

     I have been in a somewhat difficult spot starting a business here in Budapest. The progress was a lot slower than I had originally anticipated and it's just so boring here. There's not a whole lot of "fun stuff" to do. It's sapping energy away and 50% of the work I do is bullshit administrative tasks. Doubts were creeping up, and for the first time I started questioning if I really even wanted to get rich. And then I came to an important realization. I should be focusing on doing whatever that excites me. I can definitely steer the course of my venture towards a more exciting, albeit more risky, but definitely more energizing direction. Just like a rocket that needs a certain threshold of fuel to launch, I need a certain cashflow for the business to thrive. And I am currently too damn far behind that. What I need right now is an investment of 100 or 200k USD to create a cashflow of around 20~30k USD per month. I have not run the numbers exactly, but if I can ...