chain of thought

 It's been awhile since I just start writing without thinking or knowing what to write about.

But at the moment I can't think of anything. I suppose in some way I feel weak. I feel that I failed my mission. But really I should be thankful. Because I doubt anything was going to come from the airbnb in Hungary venture. If not, I would have wasted more time there. But either way I was able to gain valuable information which I would not have been able to gain elsewhere.

I learned also that literally anything is possible. Even starting a company in a new country where they speak one of the most difficult languages in the world. If that's not one of the greatest challenges anyone can face, I don't know what is.

I learned how to formally run a company and I learned so much about accounting and taxes compared to before. I learned how to work with lawyers and accountants. How to negotiate in business. It's actually insane how much I learned. I'm a totally different person.

As Steve Jobs said, the dots only connect when you're looking into the past.

So yeah I didn't start my billion dollar company, but one could argue that I learned the skills to make that happen. And now I have a new destination. Where I should have headed from the beginning. The United States of America.

If I was to build a multi million or billion dollar company, it was suppose to be in the US or Dubai. I mean that just makes more sense when you think about it.

I think I need to get back to the fundamentals and focus on myself. My body. My mental health. My diet, sleep, and workout sessions. Focus on building good habits and being a good human being.

You need to be a million dollar human to make a million dollars. You need to be a billion dollar human to make a billion dollars.

And then I think I'll study computational biology. I want to do something meaningful. Since I was a kid I wanted to live forever. Perhaps for the first time I can work towards something that aligns with my purpose. Now maybe the time where I can start working on it in a meaningful way. So that's where I'm feeling my calling right now.

But if not, I think I'll do something in the Saas space in the U.S. My intuition tells me that San Francisco is the place to go, but if it's too left wing there, then I may go to Austin Texas or Miami.

This time I want to research where I am going and not make the same mistake. I will do the research properly.

So we live and learn. Every year I get better and learn more. I can see myself changing and leveling up year after year. That's a good sign.