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So the major pieces of the puzzle has been assembled. I have invented the engine and the fuel. If the app is the engine that creates and captures value, I just need the fuel which is the tiktok, to work along with the engine. Right now I has diesel fuel, but I need gasoline. Now I just need to make the fuel compatible with the engine, and I will only get better and better. I have created a system to consistently output tiktok's and all I gotta do now is wait. I feel relatively certain that in 1 month, max 3 months, I will have my major break through. Now all I need to do is focus. 5% is signal. 95% is noise.

           I had an honest talk today, about how I was allowing my boundaries to be stepped on, and how I was putting myself under others. It is humiliating. But I allowed this to happen because I wanted to avoid discomfort. Because the trauma felt like too much to handle. When in reality all I had to do was simply stand my ground and not take the disrespect. I am of course talking about my father. My imagination paints him as a monster, a big slimy booger monster with perverse mind, when in reality he is just but a 65 year old fragile old man, who is balding and losing grip on any sense of superiority he may be desperately holding on to. Narcissism is in his nature, and I find it unfortunate. And to an extent I understand that it is like a mental handicap. It is like asking a person with tourette syndrome to stop their ticks. But also I have been allowing myself to get repeatedly stepped on, and no more. It is time for me to step back. As much as it pains ...

     Throughout my entrepreneur journey on the internet, I've had a few significant breakthroughs, and most recently I had my break out in social media, as a content creator. It's quite surreal, I never thought I would get 100k views on a video I make, let alone one of me just talking. Now it's sitting at 200k views, heading right to 1m views. But yeah each of those moments like creating the app, getting my first paid subscription, etc would move the needle. Not like a switch flipping from off to on, but like a dial moving from dark to bright. Now I have all the car parts like the wheel, the engine, the exhaust, the break, the chassis, the frame, and now I just need to assemble them together. I have the views from tiktok, and the app to give and capture value. What's amazing is, I did all the parts myself. Of course, getting some advice from other guys that did it before me, but yeah it was all me. Now I just need to put all the pieces together. I will figure it out. I ...

 Sometimes the best answer is the easiest one.

      I was just reading a book called "Talk like Ted", and the chapter was basically about talking your passion to move the hearts of your audience. Steve Jobs said "intersecting the liberal arts and technology is what makes our heart sing". That's a good one (and true). What makes my heart sing? Well I like a challenge. I like to live larger than life, and create a fight that is akin to David vs Goliath. I see a mountain and my first thought is how to conquer it. When I see a big challenge, I like to create a plan of attack, and execute it. I like to take on challenges where 99% fail. It wouldn't be meaningful to me otherwise. So I guess what I'm trying to say is to do the impossible, achieving an unbelievable accomplishment, it is something that inspires me. To shoot up a rocket size of a sky scraper, at a speed that is 30x that of a bullet, like Elon Musk did, that sort of thing makes my blood boil. I want to dedicate my life to achieving something f...

 We live in a world that is half illusion, half reality. Half of what we take as life is made up of constructs. Private property, status, success, conflicts, competition, businesses, brands, and zero-sum games. Game Theory, Laws, and Recipes. Humans create concepts and pretend that they are fundamental reality. The truth is half of the things around us were invented by us and only exist because we perpetuate their existence by considering them as fact. The only law of the universe is the law of physics. Everything else are just suggestions. -Elon Musk Everything around us was made by people no better than us. -Steve Jobs The world is a very malleable place. If one goes after what they want with maximum effort, most things can change. Most humans have the capacity to exert at least one of their visions in this world if they were to make that their sole life purpose. However we choose not to because we are distracted by vanities and distractions in ...