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Last night I met a friend, which I have known since 2001. I can't believe that it's been more than 20 years since I met this young friend, Ahmet, who grew into an adult. I can still see the kid in his face, but it seemed like the innocent happiness of a child has gone a lot. After all, he is responsible for the 1600 employees under him. That is a lot of pressure to handle. Or perhaps it is me who is doubtful and projecting my insecurity onto my friend, I am not sure. But he is very successful now it would seem, and he is running a big hospital company. I felt a bit of nervousness and awe around his charisma, but also I was just happy to see an old friend. To me, he would always be the 10-year-old kid who would crawl under the bus seats with me. Anyways we got drunk as hell and had a jolly good time. I hope our friendship lasts for a long time.

 Lately, I have kind of bombarded my brain with stimulus and dopamine. I feel like it is kind of fried like the last time I felt an excess of dopamine. I think it mostly came from AVs and the use of apps. I keep hitting to refresh button for another hit of dopamine. The result is feeling fried... hard feeling to describe. Oh well, it will pass. I think it is a good time to hit the reset button, as I feel like almost rock bottom in some ways and there's no more place to sink. Maybe there is but oh well. Anyways enough depressing thoughts, I better do something productive! Energy goes where focus goes.

 I am sitting at a new cafe, finally enjoying the silence which I have craved for some time. Lately, I have been recovering from an injury of cracked ribs, I believe from coughing too hard, and it has been getting better and better. It sounds ridiculous even writing it out so I have been kind of avoiding saying it. But man it's a sucky feeling. Anyways, I have been perhaps feeling burnt out? I have definitely been feeling quite a burden, having a lot of things to take care of. Perhaps I should explain to Nathalie what I have to do for the expansion, and let her do more of the leg work. It is a possibility. I am also looking to bring in another person on the team as customer support. Letting them take over the headache of having to message guests quickly will be a huge burden off my back. I think that these little things add up to a lot of stress, so it's best to take the stress off as much as I can. I also need to create a system to distribute the cleaning days. It is adding up...

     I am getting kind of stressed lately, especially with a lot of events happening at the same time. The date for my new expansion at Hongdae is coming up, military training is coming up, and I am getting some chest pain. The peak of the pain is passing, but I am pretty darn stressed about the other things happening as well. Just the general stress of a legality issue coming up, and small things to think about here and there. Uncertainty of the future bothers me, and knowing that it could all end at any moment bothers me as well. Lately, I listened to Ken Honda, author of happy money, and he shared a lot of brilliant ideas. Changing the perspective of spending money to being grateful for the service or product I get out of it was a fresh new perspective. Anyways, I am getting almost through with the book atomic habits, and I have refreshed my mind with a lot of valuable ideas. I think tonight, I should sit down and reflect on how I can apply these ideas to real life.

 Looking for a second in command that will conquer countries with me. I am an entrepreneur looking for a martyr that will sack villages and topple governments for me. A workaholic that is willing to do whatever it takes, work 24/7 not for some petty paycheck, but to realize a grand vision together. My goal is to establish an international renown brand that will be worth billions of dollars. If you think that I am not serious, you can stop reading right here and now. If you are someone that believes that dreams do come true and is willing to make a great sacrifice together, please continue. You are applying to either waste a great deal of time working for a ship that may sink, OR you are going to be the founding member of the next Apple, Microsoft, and Google when they were at their beginning stages when their main headquarters was a garage. As second in command, you will contribute to molding and shaping the adolescent stage of this business that will become a behemoth of a company...

 As I am sipping on this beautiful Americano on a beautiful Monday morning (never thought I'd say that lol) I am impressed by my stay at the Marriott Hotel. During my 1 night stay here, I felt the decades of experience behind this brand called Marriot. But at the same time, I also have noticed chinks in the armor and ways I can improve upon their brand to make it the apple of the hospitality industry. Anyways it was somewhat of a humbling experience, and I do believe I will be making these trips more often. It was also a great way to spoil my subconscious into an abundant state of mind, which is amazing.

 Today was a rather impulsive day, I decided to go to a Marriott hotel on a whim. After all, I suppose things are pretty standard here. Just a hint of higher quality and finer things. But that's alright. After all, you can only find so much fulfillment from material things. One day I will own hotels that are much nicer than this. I will call it Barons hotel. It will be international and worth billions of dollars. Anyways let me read this book Marriott's Way and enjoy the Marriot. I do appreciate the interior design in this place, and the few plants placed here and there. The odd curvature of furniture and the warmth of high-quality oak. It's not too much but just enough. The lighting and architecture of the walls and ceilings are great as well. Just the way I like it. I love the high-quality feel of things that just ooze out of every corner of the hotel, its corridors, and large open lobby spaces. Even the staff feels very professional and well-mannered. It is great that th...

I am going through some hard times, as I am feeling pain quite literally whenever I cough. However, I went to the hospital two times, and the X-rays showed no big problem so I believe I am in the clear. Then what it really comes down to is my mental state. Sometimes my mind is so strong that it eats me alive. It is my strongest weapon, but it is so strong that it gets out of control sometimes. Like the dragons from Game of Thrones. Whoever can control their mind can conquer their life. Anyways, my business is on its projected growth and things are going the way they should. I really should just take a chill pill. It is, however, kind of amazing how quickly I got used to the new income I am making. I am actually in the same place I was before, lacking money, despite not spending any on personal items. To be fair, the money is for expansion and I will be almost doubling my income soon. However, I do wonder how quickly I will be getting used to my new income once again. I mean, 6 mil KRW ...

As I am progressing through the book atomic habits, a concept became more obvious and clear to me. It's like when you go from knowing a concept to deeply understanding it if that makes any sense. So the idea is that you don't even know what is good for you if you do not know who you want to be.  The act of building muscles could be good if you want to move heavy things around. Conversely, it would slow you down and lower your endurance if your goal is to become a marathon runner. Also, another easy one would be if you learn boxing and do a lot of sparring, it would be good for a guy trying to be more manly, but not for someone trying to be a mathematician. So the fact that the same act can be good for one person, while bad for another is a very interesting thought for me. Bottom line, I think it is important to know who you're aspiring to be, in order to know which acts are good for you. And this brings me back to re-evaluating who I want to be. Let's do bullet points. ...

     The other day I saw a movie, and one of the quotes went something like this. One step at a time, one punch at a time, one round at a time. Sometimes, to achieve massive success, you have to move one step at a time. One house at a time for me. Going back a bit, I've been binge-video gaming lately, and that needs to stop. Or at least come up with a system, where I only take cash so that I don't extend the gaming time indefinitely. Anyways, my money started coming in and I'm feeling good about it. As unhealthy as it sounds, it almost feels like I'm not feeling myself when I am devoid of money in my bank account. But I have attached a big part of my identity to my wealth, and ironically, I think I need some spiritual growth as well. As a rabbi once said, the more your wealth grows, the more your life grows, so your mind needs to grow to match that as well or you'll feel depressed and lost. Something along those lines, which I think is really true. Anyways, I think ...

 Does money mean anything if you do not have good health? Would you trade your time for money when you are a high-value person? Your value is your cost for your time. I have devised a very unique way to do accounting for my multiple rental units, and I have come to the realization that I can consider myself as a property as well. I have an amount of money that I can generate monthly but also a cost that I spend monthly. For property, it would be income vs rent and bills. Looking at things this way, I can also gauge the profitability of my employees. It would not make any sense to hire someone for $5000 when the business is making $3000. On the other hand, if the employee is running the business at a cost of $1000, and the business is generating $5000, it makes much more sense to do that. Anyways, this blog really got my brain juice flowing. One thought led to another and now I'm thinking about getting rental units in Dubai. Life is good!