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 There are only 3 months left in the year to close out the year. It's been a pretty insane ride and transformation I've been on this year. None of the years previous compares to it. It felt like a dream when I said that I wanted to make 10mil KRW/month. And I am doing it. With the money comes a lot of other responsibilities and whatnot, but purely business-wise, I am making 10mil KRW/month. I remember asking my mom how long she thought it would take for me to get to 10mil KRW/month, and she replied that many people never achieve that level. Well, look at me now, Mom. I'm at that level. But I'm not completely off the hook yet. I am in a tricky situation where I am falling forward. I want to make sure that I am growing forward so that when the tax bill hits, I'll have enough money saved away. Also, money always gives more leverage. Things are accomplished more easily with more cash. On a side note, I've been also evolving on a subconscious level. I really cannot e...

 I have come to fire another manager this month. It is the 2nd manager I had to fire. I wonder what about this position is so hard to get right. He is a sentimental and very likable person. But we don't deal in the business of sentiments. We deal in the business of doing things right, done on time. Kind of sad but I had to fire him. I'm feeling much less guilty than I did before. Now I'm thinking about structuring the business as a startup rather than a small business. I would have a head of design, head of expansion, etc. It's exciting to think of growth and creating something new and grandiose. I want to create the Mariott of airbnbs.

I don't know why I am feeling this but I feel like out of nowhere, I got hit by a truck. I guess business has been slow this month. Plus going out and drinking heavily probably does not help. Out of nowhere, it feels like I have been crushed by a boulder. I have been working out a lot too so it's frustrating. Doing everything in my power to make things right but it's not meeting my expectations. I kind of feel like things are pointless. Maybe I am setting expectations for myself way too high. I can't help but feel like I am not enough right now, and there's a great sense of insecurity coming from it... I think that things are slipping away... First things first, I need to stop alcohol and fix my sleeping. And when I feel better, I should refocus on my goals.

     So I met a French friend from a while ago who was also a businessman. It's super interesting looking back, because that night I went out, I decided to manifest a new friend or be in an abundance mindset in terms of making a new friend. I really feel like I manifested that abundance when it comes to a friend who is also successful in the realm of business. Pretty insane that that just happened on the same night. Anyway, we started talking at the bar Thursday party, and I think I told him that as well. We just kind of clicked, and while we were talking about one thing and another, we came across the topic of boxing. I was surprised to hear that he also had a year's experience in boxing and that he was interested in signing up just like me. So we decided to sign up the same week, and that is what we did. We have been kind of keeping each other accountable to continue going, and I already feel a lot healthier than I used to before. It also kind of keeps me out of the bar...

 So there was a first altercation since we joined forces with Sean Lawrence. Basically, he wanted to buy cheap items to furnish the new house, which went against my brand. I may have used strong words and even hurt his feelings. In hindsight, I could have been smarter with the situation and it could have resulted in more money in the short term. But it was not all bad. He was overstepping my boundaries way over the line way too often. I think that it's great that I expressed my boundaries, albeit it was expressed in somewhat a rough manner.