Getting my shit together
I guess for every force in nature there is an equal and opposite reaction.
Perhaps I am experiencing the opposite force of expansion, a sort of an implosion.
I came and tried to expand with all my might. And I did, I got pretty damn far. I'm afraid it's not totally there yet, just a tiny bit shy of what would be a totally legit and self sustaining business.
But I am damn close and god damn I am feeling so weak. Like a paper tiger.
I am just moving forward with my force of will.
Just never damn quit.
I remember that written on my pencil. Never quit. And I lived by that for a long time.
I find myself so unlike myself.
This place is changing me for better or for worse, and I better get a grip on it.
Otherwise I will be rolling the dice on who I become.
I am truly in a malleable state right now. Starting on a clean slate.
Perhaps it is the most important time in my life.
I should pick and choose who I surround myself with carefully.
Carefully craft my environment. Put a lot of thought into it.
I must be thoughtful every day.
I must carefully reinvent myself.
For I am both the sculptor and the marble.
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